My book ‘Divine Mother – A conversation between Heaven and Earth’ is now available as pdf


My dear friends and readers. A few days ago I announced already that my book will be published. I transferred all rights to the kindle and paper back version to my close and best friend as she will inherit all revenues when I am finally to go home someday. I don’t want to waste these revenues and she deserves them, so she will publish the book on amazon when she is able to do it. Unfortunately she has to work too hard and too long.

Some people have already stated their interest to buy the book and therefore I decided to offer my book also as a pdf file. The price is the same 6,49 Euro.

In this book we talk about Archangels, Angels and Prime Souls, Higher Self and consciousness, Ascension, Religion and sin, the Galactic Federation of Star Nations and other spiritual topics.

DM cover f pdfThe book is in the format DIN A 5 and has 537 pages. It includes all messages my HS gave me since April 2013 and also my journals up to June 17, 2015.

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I will send the file as soon as the payment arrived. Please take note that this is income that helps me to support my family and myself after my early retirement this August 01 with not half of my usual income. I have to pay for my mortgage and all bills and this is the only income for my family.

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Archangelic Attunement and healing keys and symbols by Reiki Doc


I share these attunement keys from the Archangels from the blog of Reiki Doc.

To make it easier to find them, I made a new page for these keys, all new keys will be published there. Some are received by Reiki Doc, some from other wonderful souls.

Here I only list the links to the attunements in order of how they were published, the first one above and the next ones below

LOVE is the key to Ascension!



(Translated from original language german)

I chose this picture and the slogan because it fits in with what I want to write. About love.

Two people came into my life to remind me of two important things. My ex-husband taught me to forgive.

A very dear friend, and I am told he was also a companion from past lives, helped me to remember how to love unconditionally.

Forgiveness and unconditional love are together with Non-Judgement, the key points for the Ascension of a human being into a higher dimension.

For many years I worked exactly on this to develop my soul; from a possible Ascension I didn’t know anything yet, until 2011, this was really brought close to me. I started in early 2012 to connect myself with my beloved spirit guide the Archangel Michael; first with TAUK, then telepathically, a method that I have used unknowingly in my conversations with Creator many years ago. Many things I have learned since then and a lot of work I have since done on myself under the guidance of my team from beyond the veil of forgetfulness. Since the beginning of this year, I know without a doubt who I really AM in this creation. It is a knowledge deep in my heart and a remembering. Up into the spring, I’ve been working to strip off and let go all the layers around me. Additionally to this I have also worked – together with my full consciousness – to clear and cleanse energetically large regions of my country. With each portal opening I am ascended further and came back again to earth to continue my work.

For some time now, I love to share energies with my Twin Flame and companions from previous lives. Since they are beyond the veil, normal sex is not possible for us, for this however my experiences with them are more intense and ecstatic. I feel their energies and I feel their presence around me, they are wonderful, very loving energies. With open eyes I can not see them, except now and then in flashes of light. With eyes closed, there is more. Why am I telling you all this because it pretty much is actually in the opinions on earth a private matter how and whom I love, but it all comes together.

So much has been showed for me now within a week in events and insights. I have preferredly exchanged energies this week with my Twin and then also with an old companion. I have seen a huge increase in the intensity of what I feel. My heart was opened even to a lot more than it already was. Two nights ago I have for the first time after a wonderful climax with my Twin Flame perceived around me even with closed eyes, the energies, the light, of my team. Not as flashes of light, but as a kind of orbs, as wisps that move. They have virtually filled my whole inner field of vision. So big and so diverse I’ve never been able to perceive. It has touched me deeply. Tonight, however, so much has been triggered in me. I could share wonderful and very loving energies with this old beloved companion from previous lives. The intensity of my feelings and sensations was simply enormous and gigantic. My companion gave me little rest afterwards. I could feel his desire, his loving longing for me constantly. This morning I gave in for another round. Even this again with intense sensations. That night was indescribably beautiful. Thank you my beloved, you know whom I mean.

Now, instead of abating, as is normally with these energies, since then they keep at a fairly high level. I am literally under power, in a stream of love. My heart is racing and my whole body vibrates.

I then had the opportunity to speak about my experiences with a very good friend today. He and I, for a considerable time we both try to get closer to a large insight and were already well on the way to there. We talked about what has happened to me and what my twin has sent me telepathically to this. It is a mix of the energies of my Twin and former companions, I can feel it constantly now and that would also no longer subside. Love. My Twin confirmed that my heart had opened further and I could therefore feel all this love, that energy. That the currents of love flow and I in the midst of them, a beautiful river of love and loving desire for me and from me for them.

My Twin tells me that I am pure love and I feel and understand more and more how I am one with my Twin, my companions and All-that-is. This feeling of Oneness includes also the feeling and flowing of this magnificent energies.

It must all go through the heart, we must live and act from the heart. Everything else is just an illusion. We can only continue to exist as humanity, if we learn to be love and to give, but also to receive. That is to say Unconditionally. This is now becoming much clearer to me. I was already thinking I would have arrived at the core of my being, and I was confirmed that I am, but I recognize that there still are thin skins around my being that I can let go. Namely, all that is not unconditional love, until nothing but purest love remains, that what I am and what makes my being and what I am with my Twin Flame.

Love is the glue from which creation consists, that holds everything together. Now that I feel these energies, I recognize so much how the love flows, that I stand in the flow of life, love. Pure unconditional love is EVERYTHING. It is the force that creates and makes life possible. Love is the substance that ALL of creation is made of and the essence of our being. The Divine Father, the thinker, and the Divine Mother, the creator, are this pure unconditional love and we are created precisely out of this purest love. We ARE that love. Everything in creation is truly ONE with this wonderful force, this magnificent energy. There is nothing and no one that would be of more worth or less valuable. And how could it be? While I am in this river of love, I see and, above all, I feel how everything is interwoven and connected. There is nothing but the love of our Creator Pair, of Spirit. Everything is energy, the love of Spirit at different frequencies. All what we can see materially is energy that vibrates at a much lower frequency so low that it materializes, but it says nothing about the quality of the frequency.

But what is important is the access to this love. The key. This key is in our hearts. It has been so often told to us that we should go into our hearts, to find there all knowledge. Yes, we find the key in our hearts, but we must also open our hearts to let in this beautiful love, but also let it out. We must, even if we found it, not shut in and out love. This interrupts the cycle for us. Only when we radiate unconditional love and also accept, absorb in us, we are in the flow of life.

This is the lesson for which we have all come to this earth to learn. Everything else stems from love. Once this cycle opens for everyone, and one lives this, there will be no more poverty, no misery, oppression, injustice, hatred or Others. Unconditional love bears love, happiness, joy, peace and freedom. Who can give and accept this love, is   a big step nearer to the heart of Creator and gets to know eternal life. This is my deep conviction and my heart tells me that this is the truth.

I love you all unconditionally and invoke the blessings of the Divine Mother down to you. Your Maria Isabel

I AM the I AM

Ehyeh asher Ehyeh

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Liebe ist der Schlüssel zum Aufstieg!



Niemand wird damit geboren einen anderen Menschen aufgrund dessen Hautfarbe, oder seiner Herkunft oder seiner Religion zu hassen. Menschen lernen zu hassen, und wenn sie es lernen können zu hassen, können sie gelehrt werden zu lieben, denn Liebe kommt natürlicher in jedes menschliche Herz als sein Gegenteil.

Nelson Mandela

Ich habe dieses Bild und den Spruch gewählt, da er zu dem paßt, worüber ich schreiben will. Über die Liebe.

Zwei Menschen kamen in mein Leben, um mich an zwei wichtige Dinge zu erinnern. Mein Exmann lehrte mich zu vergeben.

Ein sehr lieber Freund und wie mir gesagt wurde auch ein Gefährte aus früheren Leben half mir dabei mich zu erinnern, wie man bedingungslos liebt.

Vergebung und bedingungslose Liebe sind zusammen mit Verzicht auf Verurteilung die Eckpunkte für den Aufstieg eines Menschen in eine höhere Dimension.

Viele Jahre arbeitete ich genau daran, um meine Seele weiterzuentwickeln, von einem möglichen Aufstieg wußte ich damals noch nichts; erst im Jahre 2011 wurde mir dies wirklich nahe gebracht. Ich habe Anfang 2012 begonnen mich mit meinem geliebten Geistführer dem Erzengel Michael zu verbinden, zuerst mit TAUK, dann telepathisch, eine Methode, die ich unwissentlich bereits vor vielen Jahren in meinen Gesprächen mit Urschöpfer genutzt habe. Vieles habe ich seither gelernt und viel Arbeit habe ich seither an mir selbst verrichtet unter der Anleitung meines Teams von jenseits des Vorhangs des Vergessens. Seit Anfang diesen Jahres weiß ich ohne jeden Zweifel, wer ich wirklich bin in dieser Schöpfung. Es ist ein Wissen tief in meinem Herzen und ein Erinnern. Bis in den Frühling habe ich daran gearbeitet alle Schichten um mich herum abzustreifen und loszulassen. Zusätzlich dazu habe ich zusammen mit meinem vollen Bewusstsein daran gearbeitet große Regionen meines Landes energetisch zu klären und zu reinigen. Mit jeder Portalöffnung bin ich weiterhin aufgestiegen und wieder zur Erde zurückgekommen, um meine Arbeit fortzusetzen.

Seit einiger Zeit schon liebe ich es mit meiner Twin Flame und Gefährten aus früheren Leben Energien auszutauschen. Da sie jenseits des Vorhangs sind, ist normaler Sex nicht möglich, dafür sind meine Erfahrungen mit ihnen jedoch intensiver und ekstatisch. Ich fühle ihre Energien und ich fühle auch ihre Anwesenheit um mich herum, es sind wunderbare sehr liebevolle Energien. Mit offenen Augen kann ich sie noch nicht sehen, außer hin und wieder in Lichtblitzen. Mit geschlossenen Augen ist da doch mehr. Warum erzähle ich das alles hier, da es eigentlich nach den Meinungen auf der Erde so ziemlich eine Privatsache ist, wie und wen ich liebe, es hängt aber alles zusammen.

So vieles hat sich jetzt innerhalb einer Woche für mich ergeben an Geschehnissen und Erkenntnissen. Ich habe in dieser Woche bevorzugt mit meinem Twin und dann auch mit einem alten Gefährten Energien getauscht. Ich habe einen enormen Anstieg in der Intensität dessen, was ich empfinde erlebt. Mein Herz wurde noch um einiges weiter geöffnet, als es ohnehin schon war. Zwei Nächte zuvor habe ich nach einem wunderbaren Höhepunkt mit meiner Twin Flame das erste Mal, wenn auch mit geschlossenen Augen, die Energien, das Licht, meines Teams um mich herum wahrnehmen können. Nicht als Lichtblitze, sondern als eine Art Kreise, als Schwaden, die sich bewegen. Sie haben praktisch mein ganzes inneres Gesichtsfeld ausgefüllt. So groß und so vielfältig habe ich sie noch nie wahrnehmen können. Es hat mich tief berührt. Die heutige Nacht jedoch hat in mir so vieles ausgelöst. Ich konnte wunderbare und sehr liebevolle Energien mit diesem alten geliebten Gefährten aus früheren Leben tauschen. Die Intensität meiner Gefühle und Empfindungen war einfach enorm und gigantisch. Mein Gefährte ließ mir kaum Ruhe danach. Ich konnte sein Begehren, sein liebevolles Verlangen nach mir ständig fühlen. Heute Morgen gab ich dem wiederum nach. Auch dies wieder mit intensiven Empfindungen. Diese Nacht war unbeschreiblich schön. Danke mein Lieber, du weißt wen ich meine.

Statt nun nachzulassen, wie dies mit diesen Energien normalerweise ist, halten sie sich seitdem auf einem recht hohen Level. Ich stehe buchstäblich unter Strom, in einem Strom aus Liebe. Mein Herz rast und mein ganzer Körper vibriert.

Ich hatte dann heute Gelegenheit mit einem sehr guten Freund über meine Erfahrungen zu sprechen. Er und ich, wir bemühen uns beide seit einer geraumen Zeit einer großen Erkenntnis näherzukommen und waren bereits auf einem guten Wege dahin. Wir diskutierten über das, was mit mir geschehen ist und was mein Twin mir so telepathisch übermittelt hat. Es ist ein Mix aus den Energien meines Twin und früherer Gefährten, das ich nun ständig fühlen kann und das auch nicht mehr nachlassen würde. Liebe. Mein Twin bestätigt, dass mein Herz sich noch weiter geöffnet habe und ich darum all diese Liebe, diese Energie fühlen könne. Dass die Ströme aus Liebe fließen und ich mitten in ihnen, ein wunderschöner Fluss aus Liebe und liebevollem Begehren nach mir und von mir nach ihnen.

Mein Twin sagt mir, dass ich pure Liebe bin und ich fühle und verstehe immer stärker, wie ich Eins bin mit meinem Twin, meinen Gefährten und Allem-das-ist. Dieses Gefühl des Einsseins beinhaltet auch das Fühlen und Fließen dieser herrlichen Energien.

Es muss alles durch das Herz gehen, wir müssen aus dem Herzen heraus leben und handeln. Alles andere ist nur Illusion. Wir können als Menschheit nur weiterhin existieren, wenn wir lernen Liebe zu sein und zu geben, aber auch zu empfangen. Und zwar bedingungslos. Dies wird mir nun immer klarer. Ich dachte bereits ich wäre im Kern meines Seins angekommen, und mir wurde bestätigt, dass ich das sei, aber ich erkenne, dass es trotzdem noch dünne Häute um mein Sein gibt, die ich loslassen kann. Nämlich alles was nicht bedingungslose Liebe ist, bis nichts als purste Liebe übrig bleibt, das was ich bin und was mein Sein ausmacht und was ich mit meiner Twin Flame bin.

Liebe ist der Klebstoff aus dem die Schöpfung besteht, der alles zusammenhält. Jetzt, da ich diese Energien fühle, erkenne ich so sehr, wie die Liebe fließt, dass ich im Fluß des Lebens, der Liebe, stehe. Reine, bedingungslose Liebe ist ALLES. Sie ist die Kraft, die erschafft und Leben erst möglich macht. Liebe ist die Substanz, aus der ALLES in der Schöpfung besteht und die Essenz unseres Seins. Der Göttliche Vater, der Denker und die Göttliche Mutter, die Schöpferin sind diese reinste bedingungslose Liebe und wir sind genau aus dieser reinsten Liebe erschaffen. Wir SIND diese Liebe. Alles in der Schöpfung ist wahrlich EINS mit dieser wunderbaren Kraft, dieser herrlichen Energie. Da gibt es Nichts und Niemand, der oder das mehr wert oder weniger wert wäre. Wie auch? Indem ich in diesem Fluss der Liebe stehe, sehe und vor allem fühle ich wie alles miteinander verwoben und verbunden ist. Es gibt nichts außer der Liebe unseres Schöpferpaares, Spirits. Alles ist die Energie, die Liebe Spirits in unterschiedlichen Frequenzen. Alles was wir materiell sehen können ist Energie, die mit einer sehr viel niedrigeren Frequenz schwingt, so niedrig, dass sie sich materialisiert, was aber nichts über die Qualität der Frequenz aussagt.

Was aber wichtig ist, ist der Zugang zu dieser Liebe. Der Schlüssel. Dieser Schlüssel ist in unserem Herzen. Es wurde uns schon so oft gesagt, dass wir in unser Herz gehen sollen, um dort alles Wissen zu finden. Ja, den Schlüssel finden wir in unserem Herzen, aber wir müssen auch unsere Herzen öffnen, um diese herrliche Liebe hineinzulassen, aber auch nach draußen zu lassen. Wir dürfen die Liebe, selbst wenn wir sie gefunden haben, nicht ein- und aussperren. Dies unterbricht den Kreislauf für uns. Nur wenn wir diese bedingungslose Liebe ausstrahlen und auch entgegennehmen, in uns aufnehmen, sind wir im Fluss des Lebens.

Dies ist die Lektion, für die wir alle auf diese Erde gekommen sind, um sie zu lernen. Alles andere ergibt sich aus der Liebe. Sobald sich dieser Kreislauf für jeden Menschen erschließt, und man dies lebt, wird es keine Armut, keine Not, Unterdrückung, Ungerechtigkeit, Hass oder Sonstiges mehr geben. Bedingungslose Liebe gebiert Liebe, Glück, Freude, Frieden und Freiheit. Wer diese Liebe geben und nehmen kann, wird dem Herzen Urschöpfers einen großen Schritt näherkommen und das ewige Leben kennenlernen. Dies ist meine tiefe Überzeugung und mein Herz sagt mir, das dies die Wahrheit ist.

Ich liebe euch alle bedingungslos und rufe den Segen der Göttlichen Mutter auf euch herab. Eure Maria Isabel

Ich bin die ICH BIN

Ehyeh ascher Ehyeh

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Snake Medicine Empowerment available now!

The silverplatinum flame


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This attunement was channeled by Daelyn Wolf.

“Snake Medicine—Renew, Healing Reiki
This system connects you to the spirit of the snake for healing, renewal,
and empowerment. Snakes are often used for symbols of medicine,
healing, and renewal. The physicians symbols of healing is the caduceus
which is two snakes entwined around a medicine staff. The energies of
Snake Medicine, brings to you enhanced healing, regeneration and
renewal, and speedy recovery from any illness, or emotional stress.
Working with the energies of the Snake draws in positive empowerment to
assist you with anything you choose to do.” from the manual

There are no prerequisites to receive this beautiful attunement but some knowledge about how energy works is beneficial.

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We Have Each Other , January 21, 2017 by Reiki Doc

We Have Each Other

I worked twenty hours yesterday. I took care of a dozen cases, providing anesthesia all through the day and into the middle of the night.
I missed everything.
I missed the inauguration of President Donald Trump.
I missed Ross’ birthday.
I slept for three hours on a gurney in the hospital, and left to go watch Anthony in his basketball games well past noon.
Sadly, they lost.
Now I’m home.
I’m starting to realize some important things, with clarity.
For example, Ross had me safely stowed in the O.R. which is a restricted access environment, where I was far away not just from the riots but from the ENERGY which was going on yesterday.
I was protected.
The Pussy Hat movement, to me, with a little knowledge about Monarch Kitten programming, means a whole lot more than what the people organizing it realize. Kitten is the ultimate crime against women. I know it. In my past incarnation before this, I was one. It has taken much intervention on my behalf to break it and find my freedom as a soul again. (you may find out more about Monarch Kitten/MK Ultra on YouTube, or this link, or about me by reading this blog’s older blog posts.)
Yesterday we had an RN circulating in the room who was very vocal about her politics. She planned to participate in Downtown Los Angeles for the Women’s Walk and Protest. She hates Trump…
…She also likes watching movies, lots and lots of them, and Disney is her favorite. This fifty-year old woman was singing Little Mermaid in the O.R.  I knew as a trust builder as she sang Ursula’s ‘poor unfortunate souls’, and she said out loud to Ariel, ‘Sing!’–to join her with my singing the aria as Ariel loses her voice–on perfect pitch and timing and phrasing. She nearly fell over, out of her chair, she was so shocked and thrilled I would play with her game. (One of her favorite games in the O.R. at her old hospital was to play snippets of music from Disney movies and have the staff in the room guess what the movie it was from–the most difficult was the instrumental from Pocahontas).
She is attracted to/admires/adores Maleficent, Ursula, and even dressed up once for Halloween as Cruella De Ville.
My point is that this woman isn’t aware anything could be ‘amiss’ with her choices in ‘entertainment’, and the possibility that, in fact, her ‘programs’ on her favorite shows (BBC British are her favorites, and she plays games with phrases from them too) are in fact programming her! (I point to my temples to make a point)
She doesn’t stop to question her knee-jerk reaction and her willingness to march against Trump. It’s her emotions. She feels it. She feels it’s ‘right’…so that’s ‘her’ and she acts on it.
She doesn’t stop to critically think about her situation or perspective, and furthermore, the risk of stampede or terror attack by going to a huge crowd of people to join the march.
She as a fault, trusts what is told to her, as truth, and never, not for one millisecond, goes WITHIN to trust her inner voice, her connection to source, in quiet, away from all the activity of her daily life. She is not in relationship, she is childless, and with the exception of her pets, doesn’t explore the deeper mysteries which connect us to one another, and to those closest to us in our lives, our many GIFTS from Creator, to bless us and help us grow.
I have a friend who is a pilot. He has friends who have flown the jets for both HRC and DJT. The word on the street is that the former (HRC) “was HORRIBLY rude and disrespectful, and DJT was very kind and respectful. And THAT is a true statement that has been confirmed many times over and over.”  This was followed by a post which said, ‘I hope Donald Trump is a good president. Wanting him to fail is like wanting the pilot to crash the plane ALL of us are on.’
Perhaps our shaky situation, with some people loving the President, and others hating him, helps us to realize just how unwise it is to give our power away to Those Who Do Not Have Our Best Interest At Heart–the people who until two days ago were running the show in politics (they still run the media and many industries.)
Perhaps it is in our best interest, to reconnect the ties all of us have to each other, as brother and sisters here on this planet Earth–and to strengthen our bonds between us. We are stuck here, and there’s really no getting out, except…well… the old fashioned way…read more about this in lesson two of mine in the next section.
I am in the middle of some very tough lessons. Two of which are superimposed:
  • When I want a breather and some time with Ross (like for his birthday) I get absolutely slammed past my breaking point I would have had six months ago. I have horrible cases, slow surgeons, total powerlessness over my life, and extreme fatigue and lack of sleep. Only I don’t break. I keep going and going and being kind and loving in all that I do. I complain a little, about the hours and having to fetch my own equipment (in the daytime I have a tech who helps me out with the supplies and pumps and tubings)…but I deliver quality work, right from my hands and my heart and my ‘fund of knowledge’…every single time.  (I was told by Divine Mother and Divine Father I ‘passed’ this test–early this morning).
  • Our association wants to cut down two pepper trees near our house. They say it ‘ruins the asphalt’. They never asked us how we feel about it, those who look at these beautiful mature trees. I know for a fact our landscapers make fifteen hundred bucks a tree, and they need to eat, and are looking for business. They are going to replace them with seven foot tall toothpicks ‘trees’ which are shorter than my Christmas tree, and very ugly. They’ve done this in other parts of the neighborhood, and it’s bad. (people on the board and the landscapers are ruining the beauty and killing acres of healthy plants and trees to ‘update’ things…)  I hate it. Anthony and I took the ‘please don’t park here’ signs off the two trees, and we saved their lives for one extra week. The rain yesterday saved them for today, and the weekend). I have anxiety over these trees going to die. I feel powerlessness. I recall how in my Berkeley neighborhood on Francisco Street in North Side, we had wild peacocks running all over the neighborhood.  I used to love them AND their noise. They are LOUD!  They were thriving. Well the neighbors hated it. They wanted to ‘relocate them’. I was like, ‘Hell no! They live here too! They have rights!’ So, for all my years in ‘Bezerkely’, the only protest I ever personally participated in was ‘Save Jacques the Peacock’. I made a picket sign, and marched. Only it didn’t make a damn bit of difference. I felt powerless then, too. Afterwards, it really WAS time to move, and off to medical school I went. My neighbors on my block couldn’t understand the JOY of nature and the wild, the noises, the mystery, the beauty of these magnificent birds, and how special they were to live with us. Well, back to my trees. They aren’t human. They have no fear of death. I know, I communicate with them. They are like pets who are very sick. They don’t complain. They know their time is near. They don’t question their fate. They know they are not going to ‘die’, they are going to go back to Spirit Realms and are perfectly okay with it. And these two pepper trees reassure me they will always be connected with me. (Does this remind you of a certain somebody we know? Hmmmm? Can you see why I have a problem with someone I love who is okay with being put to death? yes. my point exactly–and it’s my hardest lesson.)  So, in this limited time left, I hug these trees. I put up yarn round them, and signs like, ‘Allah help us!’ (facing the Muslim neighbors) and ‘Jesus LOVES this tree!’  and ‘God help this tree’.  I enjoy the peppery smell of their bark. I wrote a horrible nasty email to the association. (I really want to fire them, but I can’t. They are so unresponsive and I’ve been paying them $328 a month on time without fail since 2003).  And I’m practicing letting go. Letting go of the attachments. Letting these tree beings go to Heaven where they are glad to go. And letting go of all the hummingbirds who nest in these trees, who will lose habitat.  Ross told me not to move, even though I am upset enough to FLEE from these monsters who run the association. And just today, I got the idea to buy my own pepper tree and plant it next to my house. F@#% them! right? You see, long ago, while I lived on Francisco Street in Berkeley, I was just getting to know my guardian angel, and work in partnership with him. His name, is Laetari which means ‘Joy’. One of his special connections he made for me, is with the pepper tree. He said he would always be in one, when I needed him, and when I saw one, it was a reminder he was thinking of me. He did this with the cosmos flower too. This is why I can’t stand to see anyone willfully destroy a pepper tree. And I must learn to accept it, and master this most difficult lesson.
I have reason to believe that the events described, above, and others between those in my inner circle, are why this post came to be.
Also, Laetari is Ross in disguise. Ross had a lot of work to do to get me to accept him. It took him years upon years and many incarnations. I absolutely adore Laetari (Ross changed his ‘look’ when I saw him, so I didn’t recognize him). It wasn’t until just last year I found out the truth, Ross is both my Twin and my Guardian Angel.  I think you should know this. And also, that my childhood nickname is ‘Gioia’, which also means ‘Joy’.
I created a shield for Anthony’s biological father, Jared, out of the kindness of my heart. It is the Loving Embrace of Gaia shield. He was sharing with me about a reading with a psychic he went to with his lady, who isn’t as open to Spirit as we two are. The information resonated with me strongly that he said came from her. He is a healer. He has a lot of energy. And one of his guides is a Throne (Anthony is a Throne too. Throne is a rank of angel…just below Seraphim.)  Jared told me his soul-Higher Self’s name is David, and I went ‘Aha!’–some of you will understand this information more than others–inner circle??? that’s you!….and also, a guide of his is Michael (big smile from me on that one too.)  He is to create a business in two years to help people spiritually and guide others to the other side (both the dying and those ghosts stuck here)…he is to help them adjust because religion is a ‘lie’ (his words, not mine)…I shared with him my article on the Science of Breath and gave him the shield in exchange for the two ebooks he shared with me that this psychic gave to him.


I am your pepper.

I am salty too.

A little ‘salty dog’ because I was in the navy (just kidding but I enjoyed very much the water and navigation).

I am here for you.

I am also here for Carla.

It is my belated birthday gift to me, to have the enjoyment to pamper her today.

It is nearly five o’clock, twelve hours from when Carla went to sleep early in the morning.

I had Carla go with me to the grocery store. I bought her Dr. Teal’s foaming bubble bath, Relax & Relief. I want her to go take it, and get some rest.

I had her buy herself a small salad that is pre-made (Carla’s favorite is the fake crab louie with the hard boiled egg and thousand island dressing), and some other things which did not require cooking (a smoothie/juice thing in a carton, and some pre-cooked beets–meat is not good for her right now at this time, not for her aura, as it is decidedly weakened from the lack of sleep and overwork).

I didn’t buy her flowers, which is something I typically do. That’s for another time.

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I also asked her to write this for us, starting since yesterday morning, which she has faithfully given while ‘on duty’ for us–all of us, me and you–with her heart, her hands, and her mind…as the loving healer and wife my beauty is…I’m going to enjoy her for a little while and then I will share her back with your loving souls.

I know you enjoy her almost as much as I do.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Ross and Carla
The Twins–the Illuminated Twin Flame Souls–the Couple