My Higher Self woke me up about two minutes before the alarm with this message: I will give you a beautiful happiness of God…and justice.
As I made breakfast, I asked myself, ‘I wonder if all this is one big lie? Everything I do with Spirit could just seem so far fetched?’
I was guided to make tea instead of coffee. I took some Picadilly Breakfast Yogi Tea. There were only three words on the paper at the end of the string– Truth Is Eternal.
So Much Negativity!!
Two of our hardest working–and soon to be highest paid–colleagues and one more sat in the Doctor’s Lounge as I waited for my surgeon. One would think these financially-motivated types would be ‘out of sync’ with the Higher Realms.
One said, out loud, ‘I wonder what the problem is with (names our ward clerk/receptionist/scheduler who works days)? Every time I go up there I get SO MUCH NEGATIVITY!’ The others nodded in agreement. And the same anesthesiologist gave thanks because there were two rooms to run, not much time for a block, and the OB on call anesthesiologist was available to help.
This one, on OB, said, ‘I bury all my feelings and traumatize myself!’ in some other topic, I forget.
And when I warned them that the electronic anesthesia record is coming to our hospital soon?
I got a loud, and very positive, ‘Will you TEACH US?’
(the receptionist judges this one for changing the schedule, to her favor, sometimes without the consent of the person being changed. The receptionist thinks this is selfish. I know the doctor–this one is very ‘fast’ with ‘juggling changes’ and gets a lot of people saying ‘okay’ to her requests but with them not writing them down and forgetting…you see how the ‘negativity’ piles up? Judge not, and let the one who is meant to Judge do all the judging, and be FREE!)
My Favorite Heart Surgeon
Through my claircognizance I realized there is a very good chance this doc will self-destruct in the near future. There have been two near-misses, and some time off due to health concerns, but no signs of slowing down.
I have known this avid Catholic heart surgeon my whole career. He used to assist my old heart surgeon back where I used to work. We both share a devotion to Our Lady, Mother Mary, whom I call Blessed Mother. We both wore her little brown scapular.
He used to have a practice to do sympathectomies for people with sweaty palms. But then he signed up with this group that has sent one of my senior Chief Residents from training to worker’s comp and disability for psychological harassment, another to retire in Hawaii the minute his last kid graduated from college, and a young fresh surgeon out of Ann Arbor to flat out quit after a meltdown from overwork and under pay.
This is because this team manages the acute care surgery needs at three different hospitals. They work all hours of night and day, and the senior partners get the higher-paying vascular cases. (I actually LOVE both of these partners, both have trained me as a surgeon when I was a resident. And one, actually speaks Aramaic, like they did ‘back in the day’…with you-know-who. I see what they do, and kick the judgement part ‘upstairs’, if you know what I mean.)
I think of it as ‘Old School Practice’, sort of a pyramid system, that takes advantage somewhat of the junior partners…
This surgeon not only is always working, he is chronically late. We didn’t get into the O.R. until eight eighteen for a seven-thirty start case. He complained that because he missed a celebrity speaking event his wife organized with a Top Supermodel Contestant to walked off the show due to refusal to wear something too sleazy–that he was ‘in the doghouse’. Other themes in the day were, ‘and now I fail again’. He travels to do locus tenens heart surgery in Santa Rosa and in Redding. Also he is medical advisor to a Carmelite nun-run retirement home, he is also a medical reviewer for the California State Medical Board…he is literally burning the candle at both ends.
Today, sensing what I did, the surgical technician spoke up, and asked, ‘When are you going to slow down?’ out of concern for this surgeon’s health. The tech said, ‘My daughter is all grown up. Those years go by fast. You are going to miss those with your little ones too…’
It fell on deaf ears.
You see, this man who is so dearly loved, does not love himself.
He also is financially behind the eight ball, because his brother-in-law invested for him poorly, and all was lost.
He is a beautiful person who is lulled into this ‘comfort zone’ that is misery, and he accepts it.
Have I ever told him I see Our Lady and have since 1992?
How would he take it?
How would he take the truth about the church?
The long-story short is that this man possibly will need some more time in 3D, no matter how much grace is given toward his awakening. He’s just not ‘ripe’ yet to Ascend…
The Fun Neighbors
I asked someone who is OB-GYN I trained with if she was ready for Halloween? Her husband, also an OB-GYN, loves making the house scary for the neighborhood, and many come just to see it. Well, it turns out the orthopedic surgeon in the Doctor’s Lounge is her neighbor too. And they spoke about a common neighbor who has ‘a very nice house’ and ‘is really fun’ and ‘used to be a quarterback for Harvard’.
This couple, the ‘fun’ couple, throw many parties. They have a wall of wine bottles, that is beautiful, like in a restaurant, and have wine boxes all over the house. The estimate by the OB-GYN neighbor is ten thousand bottles. The ortho guy said, ‘If you drink one bottle a day that’s only three-hundred-sixty-five bottles. That’s a long way from your estimate!’ He also has a friend who designed an app that will read the bar code on each bottle, create a file, and tell you which ones to drink next and with what meal (chicken or beef? etc) to get them at the peak flavor for the wine experience.
The ortho shared how when he golfs with the quarterback neighbor, he is the one who says, ‘It’s time to do a shot!’ on the course and makes sure people have their bets on the game and keeps things ‘lively’. He is the coordinator for FUN!, he confessed.
My home is not in a gated community. I enjoy it, but it would not meet ‘nice’ by any standards of my fellow doctors and surgeons. My home is half the square footage of theirs. And I know for a fact the OB-GYN is an amazing decorator because I know people who are happy to get her hand-me-downs in furniture each time she redoes her house!
The long-story short is that these people have ‘played’ the system and come out ‘privileged’ and ENJOY IT! For them, this ‘lifestyle’ is security, it is the reward that was delayed from all that study, education, and training…it is like a secret-hand-shake ‘club’ of affluence in that neighborhood, and they LOVE everything about their lives! Why change? Why wake up? There is no incentive to do so…
Raising Awareness Outside The Bubble
My junior colleague ate lunch with me. He is a new father. I asked about the baby. He says she is getting more social, and he enjoys it very much. Already she is three months old.
He asked me about baby-proofing. I shared what I knew.
He was surprised I only had one? ‘You were so careful to do everything right with the baby-proofing!’ he blurted out. He wanted to know why I didn’t have more?
‘I started late, and the father left me. I would have loved to have more.’
‘Well, at least you are getting child support from him, to punish him, for leaving you like that.’
“Actually, I am lucky he is not asking for child support from me.’ I shared. He was young, and wasn’t ready. He is involved, and even coached the basketball team now.
Long story short is this doctor ‘played by the book’–dating, marriage, children after buying a home and is ‘enjoying’ his ‘due reward’ for being part of the system in his Asian culture. I, on the other hand, fit in to NOTHING of that, and yet, I love and support and enjoy my family too. He had an increase in awareness today, however, his ‘comfort zone’ is secure, and I doubt it will create the desire to ‘awaken and work with Spirit’ any time soon.
This Has Been My Angst The Last Few Days
As Ground Crew, a Star Seed who has been putting forth fearless and tremendous efforts at great sacrifice and personal risk to Help Others, I have been running out of steam.
Even with my most faithful followers, I can’t seem to ‘crack’ the hold that money has on them. I try to lead by example. By giving donations to ‘help’ when times are tough in exceptional situations (I will no longer due this as I have to support my family, by the way, so don’t ask.). I work very hard, and I also ignore my son to be on the computer as much as I am. Yesterday he told me he ‘hates Sundays’ because we ‘do nothing’ and ‘you are always on the computer’.
So I felt this sadness that Gaia is making this incredible gift, with all of Heaven and the Galactics pulling out the stops–to bring all of the inhabitants of Gaia into the New Age ALIVE and together as one…and people are so entrenched into the Matrix, into Money, into Security, into all the examples I have given…that it just won’t work as fast as I would have preferred it to work. It IS unstoppable. But it might take years upon years for this ‘New Renaissance’ to actually happen.
It is progressing slow enough that I want OUT. I want to go HOME. So do many other Light Workers. I know several who have cut way back on their efforts too.
It’s as if Humanity is refusing the GIFT of Ascension, Awakening, and becoming 5D…and it wounds my very heart, deeply…
So I went to the store. I had to get groceries. It was a short day. And in the produce aisle, selecting good things to eat for my family, I felt joy.
I also felt truth…
No one can hold me back from my own 5D experience–no one can slow down Gaia and her Ascension–no one can ‘hold any other Lightworker BACK’–this is Illusion, the last illusion from the Matrix.
And it is GONE.
I release everyone to their own fate, for their highest good.
The reason I bring this up, is not to complain, but to get to YOU who are working so hard to awaken your loved ones…tirelessly giving of your heart, like me.
Let it go.
Seek your JOY.
Dance your dance. Sing your song…for YOU, and you alone.
If anyone wants to join you, go ahead, and let them dance and sing…
I’m opening my present. I really really wanted it. And when it arrives? I’m making sure they take pictures of it as I pull the ribbons open, and tear the paper, and AWAKEN in 5D with my heart–it’s like a ‘sneak preview’ of the ‘coming attractions’ and I am going to imagine it until it arrives. Even if it takes the next fifty years for it to happen.
(for the record, I am 12 D. I am very high vibration. And I love Nature, which is at least 5D, possibly more…Many of you are higher D than you think. Just enjoy the ride, and let others take care of those who are asleep.)
Reiki Tells What Is Hidden
I went into my patient’s aura today and went, ‘WHOA!’ It was a jumble of very low vibration, which I didn’t expect because of the sweet nature I met in pre-op. I noticed a very rapid metabolism of both the anesthesia and pain meds, which was curious. I mentioned it to the daughter, my concern, for potential under medication, and how the patient would need her as her advocate.
It turns out that the energy and the life habits (which I won’t go into and aren’t horrible or anything) MATCH.
I think it’s just a yellow chakra imbalance in a big way…
Carla grew up today.
She went from ‘hoping for a miracle for all’ to a very realistic approach to the Ascension Process overall.
I have not had the time with her to coach her, or to lead. She has come up with this on her own, independent of me. And I join her in wishing for you to let go of the guilt when it comes to your inability to awaken others around you, especially ones you care about.
It is simple science that has to do with the aura and it’s ability to accept a higher vibration–it comes from habitual thought patterns, character, soul development, and karmic debt.
ALL OF THIS IS OUTSIDE YOUR CONTROL and it’s WAY BIGGER than you imagine.
Just leave it to What Is, and accept your gift.
About the money…what both of us ask if for you to simply make a little smiley face whenever you pay a bill. At the restaurant for sure. If possible, at the register at the store, and if you are really brave about it, on your billing slips when you pay by check in the mail. We want to raise the vibration of the transaction to allow a little Love and Happiness to enter between you who pay and the one who gets the payment.
This is more important than asking you to give money to a cause.
We want you to release from your shackles. No matter how little or how much you owe, you have a smile and a pen and a hand that can put that smile in ink on where your money is going.
This will break the cycle of perpetual debt, and help to increase abundance into your heart. It will take away the fear of ‘lack’ and bring with it the notion that ‘security’ is (points to the sky) guaranteed! Not by NESARA or by any intervention. It is from your own ability to MANIFEST.
We are priming the pump to get that abundance for you flowing.
Now for those of you who are going to run to your bank account and watch for the numbers, you are going to be sorely disappointed. For money does provide you the means to ‘do what you want’ but is not an end in itself. The more the focus on the money, the less it will flow. The more the focus on your heart’s desire–be it a trip to Italy, or a new house, or a Saturday night date at the movies that isn’t on the couch with microwave popcorn and a remote–the more you align your power to manifest with the energies of the universe to help you.
Sometimes things will arrive because of a gift of a friend who has ‘two extra tickets’ and thought of you, right? You get the picture. The Universe has ways to provide outside the ‘system’–yes?
And the more you help others, the more abundance will flow to you–only if it is without expectation of anything in return, it is heart-centered and balanced, and you really want the other to not suffer from their lack.
This is hard to explain for many. And perhaps this will be something to bookmark and revisit.
Either way, Carla opens her heart for you. Carla loves you. Carla is really unhappy ever since we missed the opening in December 2012. The energies have lagged for her. And she tried with all her might to make up for the difference in the hope of sparking a global awakening–somehow–in some way. Through her tireless efforts we have found you, and we thank you for your open hearts and joining the cause.
We are just about at the tipping point. With a little more effort, things that have been hidden, both for good and for shadow, will come to Light. Only the Light will prevail.
So Ebola, elections, and everything else you see in the news comes a close second to the miracle that is at hand–Gaia’s awakening together with her inhabitants.
You have ring-side seats, the very best view in the house…so keep watching! (smiles)
Aloha and Mahalos,
Ross and Carla
Your Reiki Doc family