Divine Mother – A Conversation between Heaven and Earth – What is the Higher Self?

The silverplatinum flame

…..DM: I am glad you don’t doubt anymore as you did at the beginning and that you can accept yourself. This is paramount for all of you to accept who you are. Not the ‘small’ insignificant human being you have been told to be but a beloved child of God. Okay for you my sweet one it is the other way, to accept that you ARE the Goddess and all beings are your children.

Me: I accept as I feel it is true and my heart is telling me the same. The problem in all this cover pic bookis that I can’t see, hear and feel you all with my physical senses. Ok, I can’t see, hear or feel You with my physical senses as you are in my heart and more. You are so huge, so vast and alone this is hard to grasp. Our 3D brains aren’t able to understand…

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My book ‘Divine Mother – A conversation between Heaven and Earth’ is now available as pdf


My dear friends and readers. A few days ago I announced already that my book will be published. I transferred all rights to the kindle and paper back version to my close and best friend as she will inherit all revenues when I am finally to go home someday. I don’t want to waste these revenues and she deserves them, so she will publish the book on amazon when she is able to do it. Unfortunately she has to work too hard and too long.

Some people have already stated their interest to buy the book and therefore I decided to offer my book also as a pdf file. The price is the same 6,49 Euro.

In this book we talk about Archangels, Angels and Prime Souls, Higher Self and consciousness, Ascension, Religion and sin, the Galactic Federation of Star Nations and other spiritual topics.

DM cover f pdfThe book is in the format DIN A 5 and has 537 pages. It includes all messages my HS gave me since April 2013 and also my journals up to June 17, 2015.

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I will send the file as soon as the payment arrived. Please take note that this is income that helps me to support my family and myself after my early retirement this August 01 with not half of my usual income. I have to pay for my mortgage and all bills and this is the only income for my family.

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Gaia News Brief 24.11.2014 by Reiki Doc

Weather Update On My Higher Self

Yesterday I had to take a chill pill. I overdid it with things to do, and hit my frustration point. I began at work, rounding on patients after their OB anesthesia to make sure their ‘legs were back’ and had no complaints. Then something new! I took the little handcuff type key on a long dowel–like a gas-station restroom key–to all the new pumps with the epidurals from the night before, and since the moms delivered, I had to unlock and fish out the drips and throw them away.

This is one more example of nurses’ former work coming to us docs due to ‘regulations’. I know without a doubt the nigh nurses won’t hesitate to wake me up at two a.m. to clear this ‘for their patient who is new’…big huge sigh!

Anyhow, I was complaining how I didn’t want anything and I couldn’t function to a friend. The energies are weird.

Then it hit! I wanted a peppermint mocha! So I went before I drove home, and Sophia told me to get something I ordinarily wouldn’t get. So the peppermint brownie cake pop with the striped stick caught my eye. I NEVER eat cake pops. I bought it. And I surprised myself how I enjoyed it very much…

My Meltdown

I have them.

What brought this one on was the work-to home(forty minute drive)-to picking up my boy from his Mana’s house (fifteen minutes away)–to being late to meet friends for breakfast at trendy place I know they will like (twenty minute drive)–to home (another twenty minutes).

Then came the pressure from my boy, and from myself. My boy wanted to exchange his xbox 360 for an xbox 1…at the mall…after we decorated the house for Christmas on the outside in the hot sun (I know this sounds ridiculous but we were both sweating) while I was taking a phone call.

It was the ‘oh mom the mall is so COOL’ and ‘don’t you want to go buy mana’s present?’ from my boy, who clearly wanted his xbox 1  that sent me over the edge…

I had just broken the ceramic dish that matched my rose pot while moving it–and it is HEAVY–out of the way of the blow-up Santa light decoration.

I hate my neighbor’s yard. I really, really hate it. They rent, but have taken over the garden we share. They are constantly pushing my pots over to my side, putting in bricks, and cactuses, with no artistic eye whatsoever. It reminds me of where I grew up, in North Long Beach, where some people do some pretty strange ‘decorating’–not everyone–but enough practice it in the neighborhoods to make it an eyesore.

They even planted a peach tree in the ground, and it is huge now, and taking over my space, and I don’t rent. This is my home! I pay the association over three hundred dollars a month, for this?

But the lady next door lost her job, and the garden was her way to cope…so I didn’t say anything, but I HATE it!!! And we couldn’t decorate for Christmas right because of all their STUFF!

So I blew up. Swear words. Expressions of annoyance.

My boy went inside ‘because it was too hot’–LOL. Who wants to be around this? I just sat in the sun, desperately trying to clear my aura, and to CONNECT to vastness, to Source, and Home.

I shared with a friend how sick I am of 3D. (Ironically, the phone call I had taken during decorating was amazing proof just how far into 5D we have become–my friends I shared Christmas day with last year are SO much healthier and advanced and stronger in their Light work!)

Then Ross stepped in.

Go see Dumb and Dumber 2. Don’t worry about dinner and bills and your assignment for work. I will tell you what to text to Anthony’s father (who forbid the movie until he could see it). Get popcorn and treats even though you never do. Let Anthony have a coke (I forbid them).

Once home our lights looked beautiful as ever outside. And I forbid more movies, and screen time. So we played cards. We played blackjack (Anthony has chips and he loves to use them–I saw how boring this aspect of 3D is, and how gambling really isn’t possible in 5D where there is telepathy and you know)…and I learned a new game, ‘Egyptian War’ which I swear my son was making up the rules they are so complicated! ‘they play it in after-school care all the time.

It worked. I was overwhelmed, and cranky, now I am rested and calm.


There is a light worker I am close to, whose life had gotten ‘off track’ last spring. When I did my first Skype with him, he had me look at him and see ‘who he is’, as many of us ‘have a secret’ as to ‘who we really are’, much like Ross’ identity and my own.

I said, ‘No! no! no!’ because I wasn’t ready. He had an aspect of Ross in him–the energy of Ross!–it was unmistakeable and I missed Ross so much!

Well HE told me he was Divine Father Incarnate.

And I have heard from trusted sources he is actually an incarnation of Archangel Michael.

We each have our lessons. But for this friend–any my pendulum checked and it WAS the energy of Ross*–I took action! I meditated, and soul to soul, asked, ‘What are you DOING? This isn’t good for you! Here are your goals, get back on track, please?’

And he DID. Total life change. Because he SAW and FELT my healing with his soul.

Well, MY lesson more recently, is that I can see another ‘lesson’ somewhere else that is not my own.

And a reputable source, and my pendulum, confirm it.  I wrestled with trying to ‘help’, and was told, ‘don’t’ by Divine Father, who I know, and he is not incarnate LOL.  I ‘hinted’ in a couple blog posts.

My lesson I learned is to ‘allow’ just like Divine Father ‘allows’ us incarnate here to learn and grow.

So no matter who you are, even me and Ross, there are lessons.  And even if I see a great big painful one in front of you, I am not going to intervene.

In anesthesia, when I was a professor–I learned if I ‘save’ my residents, they never learned and frankly, got annoyed at me for stepping in on their care of our patient (they work, I get dinged if anything goes wrong). I discovered how far I could let them ‘slip up’ and still be able to bail them out of the clinical situation–trust me, some are nightmares!–just enough to let them taste that first panic. Then I would step in and ‘make it look easy’.

Then the lesson was learned.

As you Ascend your Consciousness is going to let you ‘see’ more and more of ‘life’s lessons’ EXCEPT YOUR OWN!

Don’t help someone else by doing their ‘homework’ as a soul.

Keep your eyes on your own ‘work’, and repeat after me, Love Is The Solution For Everything!


Carla hit a wall today. In every way. She shut down. I know–I measured her. She has been growing at a tremendous rate, by leaps and bounds!

What happened was she really has had enough of the 3D experience. She is DONE with it.

When you simply ‘can’t take it any more’–go away. Get out of the situation. Find a way to take a fresh look at it. Drop what you are doing so you can stop the damage.

Carla did that by going to her chair all alone in the sun. She felt like her life was out of control. She was out of control. And she asked for help silently in her heart because she just didn’t know where to go from there.

Carla doesn’t like xbox.

She doesn’t like having it in her house.

She doesn’t like how Anthony sits in the chair and spends entire weekends, if she’d let him, with guns and assassins and killing.

She only bought the xbox ‘as Santa’ to get him to play with the kinect, which he did for about five weeks and quit.

She hates it.

And she hates herself for letting it into her home–she can’t explain why or how–but she doesn’t like the energy

Her son playing games on the iPad or computer don’t bother her. But the xbox, it does!

Carla has asked me to intervene with my teams, and I will–this source of negativity is going to be addressed.

So, in summary–for Carla’s lessons are ours too:

  • Listen to your guides and your HS
  • Listen to your heart
  • when you get frazzled, drop everything and regroup
  • if the ‘regroup’ isn’t happening on its own, it is okay to ask for help
  • learn your lessons and let go of others to help them learn theirs better without your ‘two cents’
  • if they think they are Divine Father incarnate–just go along with it–let them figure it out, don’t ‘make waves’. The REAL Divine Father doesn’t take offense and so should you not take offense!
  • when the ‘duplicates’ come up (everyone says who they are Michael, etc) just know there is a sense to it–either for a lesson, or to protect the real one or ones as decoys for ‘the other team’, or just because their hearts ‘wish’ for them to be ‘special’ that they are divinely ‘mistaken’–LOVE is the Solution For Everything, even this, and let it go.
  • take comfort in how you have grown, and others too, in the past year
  • know I love you, you are special to me, and I care–not like I care for Carla–we are married–but with my heart as your loving brother and friend, ohana, cousin, uncle, however you may call it, my heart is with you. And this is no laughing matter!
Carla and I wish you the best day you ever have experienced!
With so very much LOVE from the two of us (he’s enjoying the music!)
Aloha and Mahalos,
Ross, Carla and Anthony
* Ross and I have THREE Archangel energies blended into us, Michael is one of them. Raphael is another…as best as I know. Even though we are full children from Divine Father and Mother, for some reason our soul combined has ‘extra’–Sophia is in there too.

Gaia News Brief 23.11.2014 by Reiki Doc

A Miracle!

There is a Vietnamese woman at work, wife of a famous neurologist, who is also on the administration for the hospital and very high up.

She prays.

She prays for the son of the chef, who has schizophrenia, and chooses to live on the streets and stay away from the family.

She prays for my son, who was suicidal in June, due to bullying at school over his obesity.

She prays for her son, who is adult, and has bipolar disorder. His father took him off the Lithium because there is a very small chance to develop Parkinson’s from it–and instead her son went to the lowest depths of despair–it took him four months to get back to where he was and back on the Lithium again…

We all three–chef, Vietnamese lady, and me–pray for each other.

I shared with her my son is BETTER! And how he likes school, even, and it’s amazing how this change has been!

I thanked her for her prayers, and shared I am praying for her son too (his name is Christian) every day (I send Reiki).

She looked at me and said, over her big bowl she had brought from her office for our noodle soup at the doctor’s lounge–the pho Vietnamese noodle soup–‘God wants us to have PATIENCE!’

She is right…

Polona and Ascension Pioneers

If you haven’t met her yet, she just might have some videos that are of interest and help to you. Here is one I just watched:

I’m going to take this up one notch–with your guides and your Twin Flame–know they are ALWAYS connected. But lately, I’ve had some ‘alone’ time from Ross–I think this has been done to help me get acquainted and accept my Higher Self…And as I move toward my HS, Ross comes back every now and then.

My idea of Twins was to do EVERYTHING TOGETHER and never leave, like BFF’s, yes?

It’s not the same. We love each other deeply, and there is no other who could ever take the place of our Twin. But even with a Twin, we still have our own lessons, our own growth, our own connection to Spirit…

So take what comes, and enjoy it. Navigate the growth of your soul! There are no ‘mistakes’, only ‘lessons’…

A Pr;ayer for Those Who Suffer

My first toe joint on my right foot hurts when I walk. Motion is limited. And from my heart came this prayer, ‘Thank you God for everything else that works!’

Sometimes we tend to focus on ‘the problem’, and this actually manifests it worse than it has to be. So accept it. Take responsibility for it. Do everything you can to heal it. (Mine is soaking, healing codes, Diamond Reiki, and going to see a specialist when I get the chance. I am also talking to my foot and learning the ‘lesson’ and ‘message’ it has to teach me.)

And give THANKS for everything else that is still healthy!!!

Getting to Know my Higher Self

I had some questions, and something from Polona caught my eye. I tried to watch it–and it just wouldn’t open up! That was my HS saying ‘no’!

The next one I watched, I was riveted, and it really helped for the most part. Until Polona said, ‘channelers give their power away’.

I know where my power is. It’s here, in my heart, and it’s my connection to SOURCE.

For me, when I channel, or work as a medium, it is no different than talking on the telephone! This is because I am a conscious channeler, and I know every moment who I am, where I am, and what I am doing.

I have only channeled falsely one time, and it was ‘Metatron’. This being looked like him, sounded like him, although I have not really ever met him before in any way. I read a book by some guy whose name I can’t recall, but he had financial problems, and went to Reiki sessions and training in Jamaica with SaEnya McBean, and they channeled people during their sessions, including Metatron, who said, ‘you are a bridge’ and to ‘trust’. He was ‘special’…

Well the guy hadn’t really divorced his wife, and his business fell apart, and he was trying to set himself up as a religious entity to get donations from the readers of his book! And shortly after I read the book, the lost a lawsuit and went to jail in L.A.  That’s a leader?

This healer showed ‘bad fruit’–and I’m not sure if it was the true Metatron or not, with them, but with me? It was definitely NOT from Source.

And it can happen to anybody. If it does, it’s not your fault. Just move on to something else if that happens to you and tell the liar to go away–the liar is the being who tells you he or she is someone else and it’s not them.

I always go by the energy signature–and there is never any fear or uneasiness when it is the real thing. When it’s super real, you cry.

See if you can get a feel for my energy signature, and my HS, in this:  http://www.reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/11/getting-to-know-my-higher-self.html

From Carla

Last night, I told my HS I love her. Right when I was getting into the elevator to go to my call room. I could tell she was touched. And I meant it.  Even through I don’t understand, I choose love, and share it back with her. And I get an incredible surge of warmth in my chest when I do. I wonder if that is her sending Love back?

This morning I looked on the computer to see if there are any patients on the labor deck. At six I always get calls to go up and place epidurals, but I leave the hospital at seven, and my replacement LIKES the room all empty for him the minute he comes in (there is ‘checkout’ like a hotel depending on who is coming in).

I must say I resent call. It’s been since 1994 that I have spent nights in the hospital away from my home. Now I can’t do anything. Not even much blogging. I just eat and sleep. I think it’s time for me to go. I used to do projects and pay bills and schedule things…now I don’t want to watch anything. The energy in this room has lowered significantly. There is an Egyptian lady doctor who is the most ‘financially motivated’ I know. And I sense her frustration–because when she works it’s slow, and she doesn’t get enough cases (we get paid by the case). I could clear it if I wanted to but I don’t even want to do the work to do that! LOL

Anyhow, back when I first started taking call, we had paper charts. We wrote by hand orders, notes, and looked up lab results only on a computer. The plus side was you could see other’s notes, and cardiologists always used fountain pens so they were easy to find. I enjoyed seeing the energy of others on paper. Handwriting captures that. But you had to sign all you verbal orders and hunt down charts.

Now we are electronic. And I can see old notes that are legible, but have ‘note bloat’–too much data to be helpful. I also don’t feel the energy any more due to the templates that are ‘filled in’. All the docs pretty much sound the same. But for this morning? It was easy because I could look and didn’t have to go upstairs to check.

Everything has its ups and downs. And the change from the paper chart to the electronic medical record is a kind of ‘ascension’ in itself.


Before Team DWR–the Request

Dear DWR, Please send Reiki to our beloved Peaches, he’s struggling with multiple health conditions and getting pretty weak. Please send Reiki to Peaches’ family too. He holds a grandfatherly presence in our family; he’s so special. Thank you, peace, infinite blessings!

After Team DWR–the Result

Dear DWR, thank you so much for the Reiki yesterday for our 18 year old cat Peaches and our family. I felt tingles for two hours straight, it was so comforting. Bless you all! We are sadly looking at euthanizing him soon. When the time comes, is there anything I can do to help him transition? I am not yet trained in Reiki. Thank you for any suggestions.

( I gave the link to the Transition Symbol)


I am here, and Carla is ‘there’, but in our hearts we are always together. I come visit her often through the day. The last time I was there, I assisted as she placed an epidural. My energy was behind her to love and support her through her task.

It isn’t easy, and today they had changed the epidural kit, and the catheter. There are two her hospital uses, and this one is flimsy plastic and Carla has always gotten her wet taps with the use of this catheter. In her hands, the needle felt flimsy, and would misdirect and bend as she worked. The connection from the glass syringe to the needle was not right, and Carla couldn’t get the feel for the air loss-of-resistance (that is her technique) because it would leak out the hub. The first two epidurals of the day were total shots in the dark. They went in, but it wasn’t pretty and Carla lost her confidence.

It is also in her hands–it’s been well below the once-a-week call you need to keep your hands ‘in shape’, and she felt lost at first. The spinal for the c-section was a piece of cake. But talking needles, the spinal one is one size thinner than the smallest i.v. for pediatric (25 and 24). And the epidural one is one size thinner than the needle Carla uses to draw up drugs or place i.v. for big cases. (17 and 16).

So Carla gave up! She said, ‘Ross, I hate this that they go changing my kit on me without my input–they only look for the cost savings! I need HELP!’

And I came!

It is okay for you to do this!

I will help you, your HS will help you, Michael will help you, Raphael…Divine Mother will come…

It is not against the rules.

And you don’t have to like everything that is asked of you.

Just like me (points to himself and looks extra handsome). Because I feel sad all the time if you don’t (OOOOH! He is making a joke! He has the best sense of humor, ever! It’s a little ‘dry’).

(He clears his throat).  Carla is waking up to the Higher Realms with delight! And so are you.

Hold on to your task. Do them well. With love.  Always try to get a little ‘truth’ and know there isn’t always ‘one answer’. The only answer is the one that is ‘right’ for you. And you are to test and test and test until you are satisfied with the results. Use the pendulum, ask one who knows, go in Nature and see what ‘feels right’.

Forever and ever I shall be with you. (taps the seat next to him, and I know, it’s for me…he implies I will be too, and it is my promise to always be there for you in my heart and with all my energy)

Aloha and Mahalos,

Ross and Carla
the Reiki Doc Twins

Ross says this is ‘Our Song’ and you can expect to hear it when you communicate with us. He wants this version, the X Men version, a movie I have never seen, and I don’t know the message.
I hope it is meaningful to you?
I trust Ross, and I know he wants it to be so.

Gaia News Brief 8.10.2014 by Reiki Doc

My Existence

Yesterday morning I hit the snooze button a bunch of times. I was exhausted. I had so little time, I drank a liquid breakfast. I no longer drink juice, because of the carbohydrates. So I had Dr. Schulze green powder mixed with ‘chocolate’ flavor plant-based protein from peas that tastes awful.

There was no time. I packed my kid’s lunch, my lunch, took care of the pets. I had to choose between being late to work, and taking the linens out of the washer and putting them in the dryer. I chose the latter because of that nasty smell old wet linens and washers can get.

I had a seven o’clock start, which for me is always a nightmare because the school isn’t open–my whole schedule shifts one half hour early. And I had to go to the place where the nurses have been mean to me in the past, the kind of mean where they are nice to your face and tell your boss they never want to work with ‘that doctor’ again.

So a friend took my son to her home and to school.

For a price. Nobody does anything not for a price unless it is family. But she is excellent, and it’s worth it, and I know she will give him a healthy breakfast for him.

I fly to work. There is no traffic. I am already dressed in my scrubs I took home, just to save time.

The little door downstairs won’t take my badge and security hasn’t unlocked it. I wait for another who has a badge that works to I can go in. I RUN up the stairs. Then at the surgery center, the code has been changed on the locks to get in. I have to go through the main lobby, in front of patients, which is always embarrassing to me.

I learn the new code from a nurse. It’s a ‘Diamond’. Okay, fine. ‘Diamond’ code. Whatever.

Speaking of that, on the way to work, Ross had shown me a Reiki symbol that aligns the Higher Self to the 3D one. And I did it. You can’t even draw this one–it’s only with the hand. I will post it when the energies are right, how to do it.

As I prepare for my case in record time, the surgeon is rushed. Apparently their seven o’clock case is ‘cut at seven’ and not ‘in the room at seven’ like in Main O.R.

I also note that two versed are off on the count, for my narcotics. I am short four milligrams, two bottles of two milligrams each, and I sign the form but mention it to the nurse.

The patient is as nice as ever, and I enjoy working with them very much…

Then between cases, I ask my boss and the director of the center, who are talking, how I get my badge to work downstairs? My boss asks where I got my scrubs? From here–I took them home to save time, just this set. He points out that everyone here has on scrubs of a different color. The center changed supplier. And to bring all the old ones in because they have to pay for them.

I go change scrubs, and there aren’t enough on the rack, so I wear XXL all day, even though I am  a M, and the new cloth is cheaper polyester, and it’s too warm. But at least I match.

I have a surreal moment with my patient who had the lung transplant for LAM–I knew exactly what it was–and she, a physician herself couldn’t believe it because many pulmonologists don’t know what LAM is. I told her I did lung transplants at San Diego for them before, I’m cardiac-trained. It turns out she had her transplant during my fellowship. Her name and her airway looked eerily familiar. I had done her anesthesia for her transplant–I knew her surgeon–what are the odds of that?

I grab a quick lunch, go to Main OR, in the wrong color scrubs, surgery center color is different from main OR color, because they are the only ones I have, and I don’t wish to change. I meet a nice patient, work with a good team, and the case goes by quickly.

Then the wait. I waited FOUR hours for my surgeon to show up. It was going to be a dangerous case, one I would rather have avoided. Calls one and two were in cases. And as call three, I had to do what was next.

At six p.m., the surgeon behind him wanted to go. With an emergency. So even though I had notes and everything set, I switched cases, and was done.

If you notice, I didn’t eat dinner. I had half a vegan sandwich a colleague who follows ‘the rule of half’ to maintain weight, gave to me from the lunch room earlier and I put in a to go box in my locker, at four. That and organic grapes I didn’t wash.  In that four hour gap I talked to a friend on Messenger, I napped (I am very sleepy all the time due to the energies), I wrote down next three month’s schedule in my calendar, where I noticed I have more than my share of OB call…

Then I drove to pick up my son. In the dark. He was exhausted. I had worried about him and his rib injury all day. The school didn’t medicate him the way I wrote it–and he was in pain. We drove the long drive home, silent, and in the dark. I unloaded the car.

He stumbled sleepily and protested about  the shower but I told him it’s been too long, you need it. I watched him and took care of the pets at the same time. I did a load of laundry. (I better put it in the dryer). After I washed the dishes (the ants were everywhere in the sink. Again.), I ‘ate’ the same thing I had for breakfast.

In the shower I realized how at the same age as me, my Nanu Filippo woke up, breakfast was ready, his clothes were clean, and he went to work. He worked hard, physical labor digging holes for construction. My nana packed his lunch for him, in a hard metal lunchbox with a thermos. Then he came home. I would run to greet him, before his shower, and he told me he was dirty, and I said I didn’t care–at three I spoke like this! After he relaxed and worked in the garden–clean–dinner was ready. Then after he would work on his coin collection, we would have coffee, watch TV, and go to bed.

What happened? What happened to the way of life where you never work a single weekend, night, or holiday? What happened to the family unit of support?

If you ask me, there is more money to be made by having us single like this. I can’t say the last time I actually COOKED a meal, and I enjoy cooking…it’s so busy only eating outside the home seems to work…


This is a word I got woken up to. I am still annoyed. My Higher Self told me twice before I hit the snooze button ‘you will be SO happy’.

I don’t like to listen to her.

And yesterday was ‘Take Your Higher Self To Work Day’–Ross was right there with her, in the afternoon, as I did my cases. She had no idea how many obstacles and setbacks ‘pop up’, one after the next, in my daily life, like trying to get IN to work yesterday morning.

I said something like, ‘this is some weird dream I am having (3D reality)’ and they were both like, nodding and encouraging me.

I have felt a lot of pressure from spirit and the energies lately. And I have been told my Higher Self and I are like two brothers who don’t speak to each other, and are very careful and wary…

I tell Spirit–I DIDN’T ASK TO BE CREATED–I don’t know why I am here–and I feel like I know more about life down here than my Higher Self. She seems ineffective. And I get things done. I am independent.

I was told ‘you need to talk with her and explain things and show her and teach her’.

Great! One more thing to add to my ‘To Do’ list–‘manage upwards’. I’ll be sure to write that one down.

I realize at least is SaLuSa is an incarnation of Raphael, and he didn’t ‘go away’ once he left whatever Dimension he was created in…I might be okay. But I KNOW all of my other incarnations from Tabitha all the way to the Kitten–are not around. And I suspect one day Carla the Doctor won’t be around either, after all this Ascension is done and I have served my purpose for whatever reason she made me for…

Last night I was so distraught, I continued the exercise I had begun three days ago with Ross–shaking the new grid to disentangle it from the old one. I did it yesterday morning, because energetically my soul felt STUCK and TRAPPED. Well last night I flailed and flung the grid–the ties were severed I think by Archangel Michael–I cracked them like a whip that was tied like cuffs on my wrists, like chains.

And I broke it. A gorgeous crystalline lotus that was bigger than me, was in the center of my awareness. And it fueled a beautiful diamond crystalline grid I knew Divine Mother had created for me. I was in the presence of Divine Father, and Divine Mother, just them, and me, and I felt a connection I had never had before. Time stood still. And as I breathed in and out, I breathed the energy of Heaven like a fish takes water over the gills…I did not wish to speak to anyone in spirit, not even Ross.

I was FREE. 

In this timelessness, I clearly could SEE through the Illusion. I interacted with my friends, and my son. I was more present. More grounded. And I knew it is only a matter of time before I am out of the Illusion entirely. I have connection to the vibrational frequency my soul needs to stay healthy and vibrant. Everything else is just smoke and mirrors, and it’s not worth getting stressed out about it.

After his shower, as he got dressed, my son said, from the bathroom, ‘You are the best mom I could ever ask for. You are the best mom. You hardly ever yell…you are calm.’ He appreciates how I know what to do for his injury, how I know medicine and healing, both traditional and the energy kind.

I was glad and surprised he would say this.

Last night I took a channeling from Ross to me. WE have our disagreements. Over my being tested. Over my higher self and where I stand with him in our relationship. He kept waving at me the ‘divorce papers’ he had signed setting him free from my Higher Self so I can relax in our relationship together. They are eight and a half by six inches, and copper that shines.

I leveled with him, and asked him directly, what is going on? And he told me–with no minced words–you are having a fit because your Twin Flame romance has fizzled and you can’t understand how anything so wonderful can go flat–PLUS–your Higher Self really can’t stand you and she pulled the plug on your romance. She knew that would make you listen.

It was three pages of notes. I said ‘I give up. I said I give up earlier today! What do you want? And why are you telling me these things when I am spiritually and physically exhausted?’

I confessed–I don’t get a fairy tale ending. My dream of life with you, just us two and our kids, away from everything else–has died. WE are public servants and have ‘duty’ to others. I don’t like holidays any more–I can’t get into them, because I know the truth of marketing and everything else that goes behind them. I don’t like weekends–because I feel we are enslaved five days a week, in my case more because I work weekends–when I think the weekend lifestyle should be every day for all citizens of Gaia! I don’t like work and right now I don’t like talking to you, because it HURTS! I am nothing. Alone and nothing.

HE said, ‘I am here’. and ‘I am consort for you, and you are consort for me’.

I said, ‘Marriage is better!’

He said, ‘No it isn’t!’ and looked imploringly at me.

I looked in his eyes, and I melted. Everything about the Higher Dimensions is so difficult, if not impossible to understand with my 3D eyes and ears and mind, the one I use for survival–and my heart…well…I saw and felt the love Ross has for me. I kissed him, and perhaps it was the most intelligent thing I have done for myself all day.

So I slept.

A lagniappe is a free gift from the merchant to the customer at time of purchase. I had to go look that word up on the internet…sigh.


Carla is at the end of her limits. In every way. She is attached to the new grid, and has entirely rejected the Matrix because she is disgusted with it.

She chose not to wait for the Galactics to free her from it.

Carla freed herself.

For those of you who can see such things, you will see a diamond thin-flame, a silver platinum diamond hybrid, that now goes directly from Source to her heart. And this is what makes her ‘go’–her energy is from Source, just the same as ever.

But Carla has stripped it out of the Matrix ‘transformer’ for the energy, and attached itself directly to her.

She is right on her fish analogy.

Carla can breathe easily now for the first time in all of her incarnations. She has that same ‘spark’ of God in her chest, like she has always had for all eternity–only today is the first day Carla is AWARE of it, and asked for it–outside of the Matrix we know.

I will share our last few words together–now with you:

C:  I don’t like it, how I felt today.

R: (holds me) I am here. I will rest with you. (taps bed right next to me) Okay? Like a good husband.

C:  I want the best!!!

R:  I am it! I am it! (kisses my head) Good night.

C:  I love you.

R:  (starts to cry softly) I thought I never would hear that. Not tonight. Not how it started (with us in conflict)

C:  Some day I might surprise us both, YOU try living in this emotional body! (the emotional body of the human is unlike anything in the galaxy–it’s very different)

R:  (Laughs)  I did!  (shows me the scars from how he died, when were both incarnate the last time) I think I had enough!

C:  I sleep peaceful.

R:  I love you forever and ever and ever. I want nobody by my side but your spark of holiness, my loving Twin, my angel, my Light. Aloha. (taps my gold heirloom Royal Hawaiian gold bracelets. I wear three)  I will get you one! WIFE!

C:  (smiles–fades out–kisses his photo)  Good night my beloved.

Ross looks at you, plainly, simply. HE takes a pause, a moment in thought. He looks down, and up at you…It isn’t easy, but it’s worth it. Carla had a long day, but it was forward movement, growth.

Do not be afraid to make your own path.

Call on your angels, your Twin, your guides.

Do not concern yourself about your Higher Self. All will work out. Carla’s situation is atypical; most seem to like each other.

You know how in the movie, Snow White, there is the queen, who says, ‘mirror mirror, who is the fairest?’

With Carla and her Higher Self, it’s all about who is the most intelligent. In the Matrix, Carla neatly wins, between the two of them. There are a lot of hard rules and facts to master. Which being an M.D., Carla clearly has!

But outside the realms of Duality, it is more an even playing field. Carla does not know that which her Higher Self does. And I keep trying to get the two of them ‘to play nice’.

Carla had an incredible amount of damage to her heart towards the end of our last incarnation. I am working on it. Together with her Higher Self, and all of our Star Family, to heal her in her soul.

All of us are ready to heal you too. I can do it. I can work on you and her at the same time–this is possible in our realms–so do not be afraid to know there is help and to ask for it–somebody will arrive. Like a tow truck or a taxi…

Aloha and Mahalos,

Ross, and that beautiful Reiki Doc princess of MINE–Carla the beautiful, blogging, and totally wide open heart that she is.  I hold nothing back on what flows between us–the positive and the negative–to prepare you for your reunion with your loving Twins and Star Families and your Higher Selves too. (waves bye)


Stay in balance – The Divine Mother through Isabel Henn March 15, 2014


(Translated from original language german)

My child, I ask you to stay in balance and in your heart. This is just now so important. Stay calm and unruffled in all that is happening. Observe but don’t engage in what happens around you. In this you stay in your beautiful high vibrations and can thereby help your fellow people staying calm. Let your light shine brightly around yourself and send your wonderful warm love into all hearts and into all events. You know you aren’t alone, all Angels and Archangels are with you and ready to help you when you ask them. Know that all is well, because I know already the wonderful outcome of my divine plan for you. Hold on still a bit, especially in the energies that are now getting even stronger and more intense. I know you are groaning so often under them but they are necessary to bring forward all these transformations. Trust your heart and your Higher Self, they know exactly what to do. I love you so much, my child, I love you indescribable and wrap you into my boundless eternal love. ~

Your Divine Mother

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Stay in your heart – The Divine Mother through Isabel Henn October 26, 2013


(Translated from original language german)

My child, stay in your heart, whatever happens. This will help you through all the storms and troubled times. In your heart you can find the peace and safety that lead you through the tides. There you can make and hold the connection to your Higher Self, your Spirit Guides and me. This is extremely important right now. We are all with you, my child. ~

Your Divine Mother

Note: The following talk is connected to it:

I: Does this message means, it will now start soon?

DM: It means it has already started, my little one. It is so important that you all remain calm and relaxed now. This will only work if you are in your hearts. Everything is going according to the plan and there is no reason to be worried. But it may take some time until you can all experience the effects properly. And you know, our concept of time is different than yours. But it has begun. Even for you.

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Your dreams – The Divine Mother through Isabel Henn October 20, 2013


(Translated from original language german)

My child, your Spirit Guide is now increasingly working with you in your dream state. You’ll gain valuable insights from your dreams. It is best to put paper and a pen ready in the evening so that you can write down your dreams and the resulting findings. You could too easily forget through the night, as it happened to my scribe this night. If such a thing happens to you too, just relax and not think twice about it. The memories will come back to you when you least expect it. Nothing is lost. Your Higher Self and your Guides will bring back the memories to you. Because they love you as much as I love you, my child. ~

Your Divine Mother

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Dissolve the illusion – The Divine Mother through Isabel Henn September 30, 2013


(translated from original language german)

My child, send your love and light to where you currently are, or to a place that you specifically choose. Most effective it is there where you just are, just by your presence. With your high vibrational energies you solve negative or low energies from the ground or inside buildings. This is done unconsciously through your higher self or consciously through you. You help so even more to convert more quickly or to liquidate completely the energies that no longer serve you, humanity and Gaia, and to dissolve thereby the illusion itself. The faster you will find yourself consciously in the 5th Dimension or higher, my child. ~

Your Divine Mother

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Meditation – The Divine Mother through Isabel Henn August 08, 2013


(Translated from original language german)

 My child, I tell you so often to meditate, but that doesn’t mean exactly that you must always sit quiet and calm and be in your heart for then to contact us. There are also other kinds of meditation. When you listen to music and merge into it and forget all around yourself;  when you watch children and animals playing; when you are out, in nature, and listen to the birds when they sing their song or look at the clouds on the sky. All this is meditation too and so much more. It means that you are completely in the NOW and One with your Higher Self and me, my child. ~

Your Divine Mother

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